As I was journaling the other day these words just spilled out. See usually when I journal I just allow my thoughts, all of them for good or bad to spill out onto the paper. No judgement in your own private journal, right?
Well, today I’m sharing this journal entry with you because it’s part of my goal of being real and being genuine, and being more open with who I am. I am human just like all of you and I sometimes have thoughts or feelings that I don’t necessarily like or may make me feel uncomfortable with myself. But it is a reality that we all do it, and hopefully by sharing this with you you’ll find some peace in your life through my anguished thoughts and what I’ve learned from listening to God’s word.
Is it your intent to keep me in a constant state of …
Cause if so – YOU WIN
Are you trying to keep me down so I know I can’t do this alone – YOU WIN
Do you want me to be dependent – YOU WIN
I am obviously a no body, no one, insignificant
I GET ALL THAT
I GET IT
I’m beaten, I’m lonely, I’m no one, I cannot do this alone!
Now what? What do you want from me? That was my journal entry, and after I was done writing it I put my journal down and went on about my day. That evening I opened up my Bible and the Lord spoke to me through Psalm 77, and more specifically though these versus.
1 – I cried unto God with my voice, even unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me.
2 – In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.
3 – I remembered God, and was troubled: I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. Selah.
4 – Thou holdest mine eyes waking: I am so troubled that I cannot speak.
5 – I have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.
6 – I call to remembrance my song in the night: I commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.
7 – Will the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more?
8 – Is his mercy clean gone for ever? doth his promise fail for evermore?
9 – Hath God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies? Selah.
10 – And I said, This is my infirmity: but I will remember the years of the right hand of the most High.
11 – I will remember the works of the Lord: surely I will remember thy wonders of old.
12 – I will meditate also of all thy work, and talk of thy doings.
What I learned was and what God was trying to tell me is that I have begun to focus to much on things past and too much on things that are negative in my life and I have forgotten all the good in my life. Truth is, even with all the stress in my life right now I have so much to be thankful and grateful for. I must REMEMBER those things daily.
Do you struggle sometimes with focusing on the things of your past or on the bad and sometimes forget to be thankful and grateful for all the good in your life? Leave your comments below and share your thoughts with us. Perhaps, you can lend another hurting soul some advice on how to deal with it or move forward from past hurts or how to get through current struggles.